My sister texted me today: “sometimes I wish I could just look ahead into the future..” I smile and text her back: “so would I..” 

Isn’t that what we all want sometimes? Just to know what’s next. This morning I had a discussion during breakfast with colleagues about having children and careers and marriage. The topic seems to come up all the time lately. Anyways, it’s one of those topics that you can always keep talking about. 

I am stuck. 

Can’t think what I am actually trying to say. What I want to say. As much as I am using this blog to process my life, I can’t make sense of the future. I can’t make sense of what I am trying to understand. The future. The unknown. Impossible to control. 

Maybe that’s the hard part. My sister and I, we are both perfectionists. Wanting to be in control is part of who we are. And there’s not really anything wrong with that. Except that we make our own lives a bit difficult sometimes. 

But all we get is today. And today was a good day. Tiring, intense, hot and dry. But a very rewarding one as well. One of those days in which simply being present in the moment is all that matters. A day that made me smile. And made me fall asleep in a comfy chair after a long working day.

So, remember, my darling sis, those words from our favourite tv show when we were kids. The one where Caroline Ingalls says something about people worrying about tomorrow, but tomorrow never comes. So let’s practice in being present together. And when we forget, we can remind each other that things will in the end all work out exactly as they should.