Some days you wake up and you just know that today is not going to be your best day. So today: format frustration. It turned out to be just fine, and I don’t mind at all admitting that I should have checked twice and that it wasn’t such a big deal after all. But in the end, it was sort of a metaphor throughout the day. I am tired, my lower back hurts and my thoughts are miles away.
As a close my laptop and bring back my empty coffee cup to the sink, one of my colleagues says: “You were so quiet today, is everything all right?” And I give her the honest answer of not really being okay today.
But then there is that whisper in my heart. When I picked up my plastic yogurt pots, filled them with fresh soil and planted new seeds. Melons, tomatoes, flowers. When I went to the garden and picked the fresh vegetables ready for eating. God provides in every single need. Even though I feel like I am failing, He never fails.
In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.
Though you have not seen Him, you love Him; and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
1 Peter 1:6-9
But men, it’s hard. Although no one ever promised us that every day would be easy and smooth. Sometimes it’s a struggle. It’s those days that practicing gratitude is more important than anything.
So instead of letting the format frustration as we have named it at work now take the lead in my day, I am going to name 10 things that I am thankful for.
- Laughed the tears out of my eyes today when my colleague showed me a video of a kayaker on an inflatable pool toy rafting down a huge waterfall.
- Video calls across the world.
- Pineapple and watermelon.
- Spanish words.
- Hands covered in soil and planting more flowers, fruits, and vegetables.
- Wearing my favourite dress. Or one of them. The purple one. And from a fair fashion brand. (Read my Dressember blogs if you want to know more about why I care so much about who made my clothes.)
- Candle in an empty beer bottle.
- My half-an-hour yoga in the morning.
- A silent night in Kampala. No dogs barking, no music at Kabalagala and no tv at the neighbours’ house today.
- Hand written postcards from friends and family on the wall.
And number 11. Finished another blog, now I can go sleep. Tomorrow is a new day. New opportunities. New changes to be a better person than I was today. Goodnight everyone.